and this is why they call her queen

In honor of Thanksgiving...

gina.stanton@gmail.com — Thu, 26 Nov 2009 14:15:05 GMT

gina.stanton@gmail.com — Thu, 26 Nov 2009 01:59:05 GMT

It's so strange that it is Thanksgiving already. It's been over six months since I left Fordham. I've been at my "new" job for over two months.

I put back on all the weight that I had lost the last semester at school, which sucks, especially going into Thanksgiving and Christmas and New Years...lots of food! But I'm going to try my best to take it back off and then some, because there's a lot of things that I want to do in the next year that I can't do overweight!!

I still intend to go to the CIA next year, but am still hunting for somewhere the intern. I'm going to start seriously looking in January, but if something were to come along before that, that would be just fine by me.

Michelle and I went to see the latest STP show. It wasn't very good, for the most part, but it was nice to see people! And I laughed a lot. I'm hoping they pick something really awesome for their next show, because I do want to go back but I'm not willing to go back for just anything!

I'm doing pretty awesome on my Christmas shopping, which is nice.

gina.stanton@gmail.com — Wed, 21 Oct 2009 13:36:01 GMT

So, I have recently heard some not so good things about Johnson and Wales, the school I was thinking of going to in Rhode Island. I haven't written it off completely because I haven't found anything concrete, but I am leaning a bit less heavily towards it.

I am re-considering the CIA, which would be good because I would do the 2 year program and get my associates, since it seems that the second half of the 4 year program focuses a lot on business, which I already have a bachelors in.

The problem? Before going to the CIA you need to "gain about six months of hands-on food preparation experience in a kitchen in which at least 50% of the food is made to order on the premises."

This will be tough, as I am already working a full time job. I am going to see in the next few weeks if one of the local-ish bakeries would take me on as an intern/volunteer for a few days a week to fulfill the requirements. o.O

I've known since you were 3. All you wanted was some sensible heels.

gina.stanton@gmail.com — Thu, 24 Sep 2009 02:21:30 GMT

I'm really mad right now. Just had a semi-argument with my dad about money, that basically started because I said it was CRAP that Dennis is only paying for his text messaging ($10), not the rest of his phone ($20 + $10 = should be paying $30). All of a sudden it was blah, Gina, you don't pay rent and when I was your age we walked or took the bus and didn't drive those new fangled cars and when you start paying the bills you can make decisions. I cried a few tears of rage in my room, but I almost wanted to say Goddamit then I'll just move the fuck out and you can leave me the hell alone. I know it was an over reaction, but I got very upset. I mean...I hate to be this way, but it's very very bothersome.

Ahem. Anyway.

I've been working at Sclafani for a week now, and it's ok. I mean, I'm not like OMG SO AWESOME, because, quite frankly it is just a job and it is an office job so that will never be omg so awesome, but as far as it goes, it's pretty alright. I like my co-workers, I don't mind the work, and I feel like I'm doing well there so far. And I get to wear jeans, which is nice.

Now that I've crossed both bagels and farms off my list, I'm floundering a bit. I'm thinking about culinary school again, this time for culinary arts, though, not baking and pastry. However, I'm not sure. I mean, I know I really do want to go to culinary school - because I miss school, I miss classes, I wasted my college years being a loser, and because I really just think it would be great for me. However, I don't know if I am willing to hock myself into that much more debt when I'm not sure that I really want to be a cook later on in life. If I do it, I will go next September, so, I've got a year to decide.

And I started my Christmas shopping today. !!! I want to try to get most of it done early, so that I'm not spending upwards of $500 in one clip (between my Mom and Mike's birthdays, plus all my immediate family and family's significant others, that right there is about $450, then when you ad in friends, maybe co-workers, etc...). I'd love to have it all done before December. But we'll see.

monday morning wake up knowing that you've got to go to school...

gina.stanton@gmail.com — Sun, 13 Sep 2009 17:17:36 GMT

Heather and I visited the farm yesterday. As much as I loved (LOVED) the beakless turkeys, who were amazingly awesome and friendly, the rest of it wasn't quite there for me, and I decided that it probably is not a good option. That, coupled with the fact that they are "still pretty early in the process, but we will be in touch," have basically decided for me.

(Decided for me, because I was offered a job last week at Sclafani Oil in Mahopac, and I need to let them know either way on Monday. So I kind of needed to know about the farm by yesterday, can you dig it?)

So, on Monday I'll be putting in my two weeks notice at the staffing agency in White Plains and accepting the job at Sclafani. I will also be trying to get them to change their offered salary - they offered $13, but the range of the job was $12-$14, and I want to push for the $14.

On the bright side, they offer benefits (for $10/week, medical and dental, which is pretty awesome), they are close (no more than 15 minutes from my house, probably more like 5-10), I get 12 paid vacation days, it's a jeans and t-shirt dress code, pay is weekly and correlates with the previous week (ie, no lag time), and I don't start until 10.

On the not so bright side, it's lots of phone work (I hate phones), vacation and sick days can only be taken from May-August (because winter is their really busy time and they need everyone there unless there was a death in the family or you are really sick or something serious), there's no lunch break (you eat at your desk usually and get 2 15 minute breaks), it is open on Saturdays (on a rotating work schedule, so some Saturdays I will be working), and I don't leave until 6. But it is better than my current position, so I'm giving it a go and it will be a good way to save up some money for a while.

I miss being in college. I think this is mainly because my last year was so awesome, and my previous two sucked. I really regret how I spent my time the first two years - even changing little things, like auditioning for choir, or not being a business major, would have made my time much better. Than again, if I had changed those things, then I would probably not have met my fabulous girls that I lived with last year, and I wouldn't change knowing them for anything. So I'm torn, and generally sad and nostalgic because I didn't really enjoy college until it was over.

It is nice being in Mahopac again for the fall, though. The leaves are pretty, and the weather is crisp and lovely.

I feel like I had more to say, but I forgot.

I heart Shue!

gina.stanton@gmail.com — Thu, 10 Sep 2009 02:05:40 GMT

PS - the Glee premier was epic, as expected.

Someday I'll fly away...leave all this to yesterday...

gina.stanton@gmail.com — Wed, 09 Sep 2009 23:45:09 GMT

I wish I could fast forward to a month or a year from now, when tough decisions would have already been made.

I've been offered a job at a company in Mahopac which everyone thinks I should take. For that reason alone, I don't want to, but I'm also pretty sure I will hate it within a month of work (I give it three at max), so I'm fairly leery of accepting it. I have an interview with Heather on Saturday, and I feel like I have to at least try to position that we are going for, because otherwise I. just. won't. know.

I really need to force my hand into writing again, or my fingers into typing beyond facebook status updates, google queries, and e-mails. I've been reading a lot again and the ache to write is enormous, but so is the apathy.

warning: this is a long post with no cut. sorry.

gina.stanton@gmail.com — Wed, 26 Aug 2009 02:08:23 GMT

I've been back from vacation for three days and it already seems like months ago! It was good - not great, but not bad, either. I wasn't super thrilled with the new place we were staying, but I did enjoy the lazy river, which we nicknamed the pee-pee river and sang many songs about. I also enjoyed the beach, moderately (I'm not really a huge ocean person), barefoot landing (although we weren't there too much), hamburger joe's, mini golf, my queen size bed & balcony, being on the 13th floor, and family time. Things I didn't enjoy was our crappy waitress at joe's crab shack, the largeness of the building & the number of people in it, the drive, and family time. ;) Family time is good, but can be frustrating at times in close quarters!

The day after we returned, my dad traded in the van for cash for clunkers. I miss my van!! :( But there was no way anyone would pay us $4500 for that van under other circumstances, and since all but one dealership around us had stopped doing the program, we had to act quickly. This is the first time we've ever had a new car in the family. Doesn't matter, I won't be driving it.

Speaking of driving, we've spoken to Geico about my accident. The fault is 100% on the other woman, which is good, so we will probably be getting between $200 and $500 from Geico. We're not getting the car repaired, but my dad is going to bang it out until it's drivable again. ...great...

After a month and a half of me waiting for a third day to be added to my work in white plains, I started looking for another job and have a few things in the pipeline. Which is of course when they were all, word, do you want another day? Not so good timing! As it is, they will be lucky if I stay my two days, if the job that I am hoping for comes through. Which I will talk about if and when it comes through. Fingers crossed.

I'm really worried about Misky - she's not eating well, she's a little more lethargic than usual, and she's sleeping the whole night on my bad. This last part is nice, but she's never done that before. She's still pretty young for an indoor cat (12 years or so), but...

Dennis is going away to college on Thursday. I can't believe it's so soon. I wish him well with it, but I have no idea how it will go. I do worry about him in the social aspect, because he already has a history of not holding his alcohol. I don't want him to be one of the masses who drinks a lot in college. What I want probably won't matter all that much, if at all. I also worry about him academically. If his grades are less than a 3.0, he loses his tennis scholarship and my dad will yank him out. I do think that being away from home will help him grow up, which he needs, as well as being away from some of his friends here, who he claims to not like any more but still hangs out with. I am very interested to see how he will be when he comes home for the first time. I wonder how I was.

With him heading off to college for the first time, and everyone heading back, I'm feeling rather upset and nostalgic, not really in a good way. I'm having regrets for the way I handled things. I vaguely regret that I left Loyola, because I would have been a theatre major and that would have been great. It couldn't be any less lucrative than my current occupation, anyway. I love Fordham though, so ultimately I'm glad I transferred. But I missed out on so much of Fordham. Last year was great, but I wasted a year and a half there, not really experiencing or doing things or even learning all that much. Because I was in a rush to get out, I didn't take that many classes and explore. I didn't make many friends or participate in many things. I generally was a non-entity for the first year and a half there. It makes me sad, but it makes me not want to miss out or regret anything else. I'm trying to figure out what I want and what to do about it.

In more trivial but no less grave news, Star Trek does not make it to DVD until mid-november. This is most upsetting for me.

My car fought an SUV and the SUV won.

gina.stanton@gmail.com — Fri, 14 Aug 2009 16:15:32 GMT

So we are leaving to go to South Carolina tonight at 10:30 PM.

Earlier in the week, they asked me to come into work for a few hours today. To get a few extra dollars and win some brownie points, I said sure.

Too bad I was in an accident on my way to work this morning!

I'm fine, and the other person is fine, and I wasn't at fault at all. She started making a left but didn't check for any cars. My car is not so fine - my dad had to come get me 40 minutes away because the rim was touching the wheel. We managed to bang it out, and he is driving my car home (should be back soon, I hope) and I took his car home. It's pretty mangled, though - it's the left rear passenger side that got hit. :(

Writer's Block: Commercial Appeal

gina.stanton@gmail.com — Tue, 11 Aug 2009 14:53:17 GMT

What is your favorite commercial from your childhood? Bonus points if you include a video of it.

View 502 Answers

Yeah, Crossfire!

Wow, way to mock me XKCD. :(

gina.stanton@gmail.com — Mon, 10 Aug 2009 13:16:24 GMT

gina.stanton@gmail.com — Wed, 22 Jul 2009 16:47:32 GMT

This is going to sound extraordinarily pretentious. If you can, please overlook that, because it needs to be said. While driving the other day, I had what felt like it should be an epiphany, but no great wisdom or realize came along with it. Just a feeling of great clarity, telling me to remember this moment. I did, in that I'm telling you about it now - but I can't actually remember where I was going or why. I feel as though I missed out on something that would have be great.

Whew! The pretention has passed, for the moment. I'll try to warn you if it is coming back!

Wait...might be coming back again. So, the Thursday before there was an awards night for all the CBA kids, where people got, well, awards. It was also where the valedictorian and salutatorian spoke. I knew I was getting an award for being a part of the consulting program and working with the UN, but I was hoping for something involving the entrepreneurship program, as well. It was a long, tedious night, and I did get my consulting medal, but that was it. Anyway, fast forward to graduation. We do the whole outdoor part of the ceremony, and Tom Brokaw and Mayor Bloomberg spoke and I went up and sang with the rest of the choir, and then all the schools split. CBA was sent under the bleachers, where we were given hot dogs and water, and slowly lined up in alphabetical order.

Dean McCarthy, the senior dean, came in my direction, and said "I'm looking for Regina Stanton." And I was all, "Hey, that's me." She then told me that they forgot to give out the award for the highest GPA within the entrepreneurship program (which was ME) and she was soooo sorry and here's a medal please wear it and I will mention you during the ceremony! I said "ok," and then we all went into the gym, where we were going to receive our diplomas. After everyone was seated and the CBA dean had spoken, Dean McCarthy got up and said, "There's something I forgot to mention at awards night, Regina Stanton, highest GPA (in entrepreneurship), Regina, please stand up, everyone clap for her, yay, she's so awesome!" Basically, she made everyone in the auditorium think that I was the valedictorian, which I was so not, and it was great. Not sure what made me think of that now, two months after the fact, but, whatev.

I actually really miss college, which I never would have expected at this time last year. My first two years sucked, but my senior year was fan-freaking-tastic. Mostly I miss my roommates and the choir.

I'm trying to remedy that last part by setting up a chapter of Sweet Adelines, but it's slow going on my end.

I'm also trying to figure out what is going on with my elusive bagel store. I had bagel training on Sunday, though, so I'm still processing.

And do yourself a favor and watch the Sherlock Holmes trailer - I think it looks AWESOME. Also looking awesome is the trailer. And the trailer for Whip It looks cute.

gina.stanton@gmail.com — Wed, 15 Jul 2009 23:26:45 GMT

While watching Repo! The Genetic Opera with Heather the other night, I was both amused and horrified. I was like, wow, this is fun, but pretty awful. Annnnnnnnnd now, I've watched it again and listened to the soundtrack, and I am mildly obessesed.

I saw the new Harry Potter movie today, too. I can't quite figure D Rad out - he is extremely attractive in person (not just because I saw him nood!) but not so much as Harry Potter. It might be the hair. I think he's pretty groovy, though. I had a few "wtf?!" moments during the movie, mostly because I was having trouble remembering what was canon and what was from fics, because it's been awhile since I read the books.

Apparently, some people don't re-read books, which is a very weird to me.

An LJ-friend of mine is a part of this womens barbershop group, and she inspired me to check out the website and now I really want to get involved! There aren't any chapters around here, though, so I wrote away for info on starting a chapter.

I have bagel training at 3:30 am on Sunday morning. I'm a little scared.

Panic! at the Disco has broken up, which is uber sadface for me, because I love them to itty bitty pieces. Which they are now in. (Two of the members are staying with the band, and the other two are going off to do their own musical thing.)

And that's all for now.

to you and you and you you and you!

gina.stanton@gmail.com — Tue, 07 Jul 2009 15:49:13 GMT

It seems that in two weeks time, I will be down from four and a half days of work to two or three days of work. This is entirely my doing, but I'm still pretty annoyed about how it went down.

I kind of want to run away and join the circus.

I ordered something on the interwebz that hasn't shipped yet and it annoys me. What a strange society we live in - that I am annoyed that something I decided I wanted four days ago and purchased by using a few numbers hasn't arrived at my house yet, complete with pink tissue paper.

The past four days I have worked out. Woohoo, go me. I am trying to keep this up everyday because I want to get in shape and be healthy. What does get in shape really mean, though? It's a strange term.

I'm very sad, because it's been announced that Panic at the Disco is splitting up. This is worse than when they removed the exclamation point, guys. What's her face and so-and-so are leaving to make their own beautiful music together, and the cheerleader and the ugly one are going to continue on as PatD. (That just doesn't look as good as P!atD.)

Anyway. I'm off to work while I still have a job. Hurrah.

PS - I just got the script for a teen version of Rent that KJK is doing. It's so lol-worthy. Some of the stuff that they left in I'm like, WTF? Why would you let kids say/do that? But things that they changed are really funny, too. Why would you have a kids summer camp perform Rent? Seriously.

Nobody puts bagel in the corner...

gina.stanton@gmail.com — Sun, 28 Jun 2009 20:34:42 GMT

So. Things.

Yesterday was a small gathering, in celebration of Dennis's high school graduation and my college graduation. It was pretty lametastic, with almost exclusively my parent's friends and wacky bizarre relatives. Dennis and I each each had a few people as well, but most of my college friends couldn't make it at the last minute.

I'm really not happy at one of my jobs, and I think I am leaving. Which, yes, is douchey of me, blah blah blah. I am leaving because I am most likely going to be receiving training on how to make bagels and run a bagel store. Because my dad and I am thinking of opening a bagel store in Carmel.

Anyway. That's really all. I feel like things have been going on, and they have been, but writing them down makes them sound stupid.

I'm looking forward to vacation in August (SO MUCH) and hopefully getting moving on the bagel store soon thereafter. I'll keep you posted.

gina.stanton@gmail.com — Sun, 31 May 2009 21:32:31 GMT

As mentioned last time around, I have been working to sort and clean and re-organize things in my room. This includes papers. Today I pulled out a cardboard box with high school assignments, Drumbeat issues (I have way too many copies!) and random advertisements I must have liked back in the day.

I also found a hand written drumbeat submission called "Death Wish" by crow in waiting. I don't recognize the pen name, nor do I remember publishing it. For your reading pleasure, without corrections, I give it under this LJ cut.

Death Wish by: crow in waiting

your eyes were dull today
the innocent sparkle faded long ago
your words were dry today
meaning replaced with darkness
your face held pain today
sorrow + guilt ripping apart the shine
will I ever see you again?
your pulse was slow today
heartache dipped in hostility
your hands were cold today
warmth scarred with fright
I'll visit your ashen grey doorstep
and we can stare at the clouds for hours
your smile held no peace today
embeded with anger + confusion
one day we will be together
life will return to your pale face
and we'll catch fireflies under the moonlight
I promise...

And there you have it.

Guys? True confessions time. (No, I didn't write it.)

I miss high school!

omae o korosu

gina.stanton@gmail.com — Fri, 29 May 2009 18:27:56 GMT

I haven't started my job at the recruiting company yet (I start Monday) so I have today off. Which is awesome. I don't dig the whole work thing. Anyway, I digress.

I'm spending the day trying to finish going through the old crap in my room and unpacking my college stuff. That includes going through the junk in my closet, which hasn't been gone through in years. I pulled out a pile of games, which included Gundam Wing Opoly.

Some of you remember this - I got a "make your own monopoly" for Christmas one year, and made it into, well, Gundam Wing Opoly. Serious nostalgia fest, as well as embarrassment fest, because in the box was part of the terrible self insertion fix that I wrote (it included me, Michelle, Rachel, and Kristina - so probably circa eighth grade). It's really bad, but, I want to try to find the rest of it, for the lolz. Anyone happen to have it?

Anyway, I also just managed to log into the yahoo group that we used to use all the time - SquabsFanfiction. The messages I sent you guys were tragic, and I apologize! :)

But, in the best news: Heero is Not Toast still exists. It took me a few minutes to remember the name, but I found it!

hurray hurrah!

gina.stanton@gmail.com — Fri, 22 May 2009 02:09:43 GMT

I saw Kooza last night, which was amazing. I liked it a lot more than Wintuk, and I'm thinking about becoming a Cirque junkie (you know, one of those people who just refer to cirque du soleil as 'cirque', lolz). Really, really cool stuff.

I've been working on and off this week on unpacking/cleaning, which is a big job. I'm hoping to finish by Saturday!

Today I went to Chappaqua to interview in person for a position I've been phone interviewing for. I left being pretty sure I would be hired, but didn't expect to find out for sure until next week.

BUT: I got a call this evening around 7, and I was officially offered both of the jobs. It looks like I will be doing Monday and Friday at the recruiting firm in White Plains, and Tuesday afternoon, Wednesday, and Thursday at the consulting firm in Chappaqua. If I want, I can probably go to White Plains Tuesday mornings, but, we'll see how it goes. I'm not getting paid super well, but, they should both be really great positions where I will learn a lot, and I'll be getting a salary review in a few months.

So, hurray! I am employed. I start Tuesday. :)

foux de fa fa

gina.stanton@gmail.com — Tue, 19 May 2009 14:48:46 GMT

I am officially a college graduate! :) Who would have thought, when in my senior year of high school I had a meltdown and didn't want to go to college and filled out applications to all of the culinary schools, that, three years later, I would have a BS degree from Fordham University in Business Administration? Definitely not me!

It's pretty exciting, but it's sad too. McShane (Fordham's president, who is the shit, I love him, best jesuit ever) gave a speech that made me want to cry. This is strange, because I was miserable at Fordham my first semester, too. The next year was better, but still not great. This year, though, was so good, between my roommates and choir. I will miss both so much! Luckily, three of the five roomies will be in manhattan next year, so I can visit!

On the job front: I am going to White Plains for an interview today at 2, at the recruiting firm where I previously interviewed. This time, however, I am interviewing to work for them part time. I also have an interview with the consulting firm in Chappaqua that I interviewed for at the recruiting firm. It's a little confusing, but, the short of it is that both places have told me that I have a "pretty sure bet." I hope this is true, because I will be both disappointed and screwed if I don't get at least one of them. (The recruiting firm job was suggested to me by the recruiting firm because they know I want full time employment, and, if I work both part time jobs, it will equal full time employment.) Whew!

I also want to work on getting WTFudgery off the ground again, but I won't be doing it from the online aspect. I think tomorrow I am going to call the church and ask them if I could pay to use the kitchen that they have in the social hall, because I think it is a commercial kitchen.

I will be living at home for at least six months. If I get both jobs, I may be able to get an apartment after that. With a kitty cat! And new bath towels! And a couch! And decorative glasses! :) Hopefully.

That is all.

ps - apparently that is not all. I saw Star Trek the other day. SO FIERCE.

That is all.

gina.stanton@gmail.com — Mon, 11 May 2009 16:04:15 GMT

I started to post last week, after my last class but before my first final. I realized I wasn't saying anything worthwhile, so I stopped.

As a warning, I will probably not be saying anything worthwhile except for OMG I'm graduating in 5 days!!!

My finals kind of sucked, and so do my grade so far. Three are in: a C+ (though its kind of fitting, because my semester at LoCo had a C+ as well), a B, and an A. The other three should be As or A-s, which will bring me between a 3.65 and a 3.67 for graduation, which is cum laude, and a whopping .05 away from magna cum laude, which is rather frustrating!

Saturday my roommates and I went to Dorney Park, and it was a lot of fun. Stressful, because I drove there and back in the van and I've never driven in the Bronx or the NJ Turnpike before, but it went well - it was a really good day, and I even remembered a change of clothes so that I didn't have to buy short shorts for the ride home. :)

Tuesday I think I'm going to do city things with my roommates, and Thursday I'm going to the Bronx Zoo. Thursday night is the CBA awards ceremony, Friday will be trying to take it all in and say goodbye, and Saturday is graduation. After graduation, I will eat at Patsy's with the family.

On the job front, good news! I went for an interview at a personnel firm in White Plains on Wednesday, and they really liked me. They are setting me up to interview with a consulting firm in Chappaqua (as an admin assistant). Strangely enough, I know the girl whose job I am applying for, and she is going to put in several good words for me tomorrow, which is her last day. However, if I don't get that position, the personnel firm says they have a few other jobs that they will help me look into. So that's good.

I'm having nostalgia fits for the days when I talked musicals non-stop, and listened to the OBC recordings all the time. ...even Rent. Yeah, Rent and Miss Saigon have been my shower songs for the past two weeks. Weird.

In other vaguely worthwhile news, I am now pondering going back to school to get a Masters in education and teach english. And after that, I would like to start an alpaca farm.

These sound like jokes, but, they are not.

gina.stanton@gmail.com — Tue, 28 Apr 2009 23:45:56 GMT

So.....I am officially done with my undergrad classes. I don't want to say that I am done with all classes forever, because I may end up going to grad school (teaching looks attractive to me lately, not sure why) or perhaps take some interesting classes somewhere else one day. But, I am, for sure, finished with undergraduate classes at Fordham.

Firstly, this was, by far, my best year at college. Weird, actually, because my senior year of high school was the best year, too. I actually made friends through an activity (technically two), did a job which required little work with decent pay, wasn't on a meal plan, had a kitchen and a bathroom, and adore my roommates. While I wish I had done these things sooner, I'm glad it happened eventually. I can't express, though, how much I love my roommates, and how sad I am to be leaving them.

Second, my classes this year really sucked. It would have been nice to go out with a bang, finishing my time at school with classes I enjoy, which is what happened (mostly) in high school.

Third, the job market BLOWS right now. I've been applying for jobs (some which are above me and some which are below me) since December, with zero offers. I am going to continue applying, and will get babysitting or retail work over the summer if need be.

Fourth, I don't feel that I really experienced Manhattan and the Bronx enough. I will miss the Bronx. I will miss Fordham.

Fifth, I'm totally thrilled at the thought of being finished with school, at least for awhile. I'm also looking forward to being able to (hopefully) move out of the parental's house and into an apartment of my own, and get a cat.

Nonetheless, I feel very proud of what I accomplished. I probably won't be graduating Magna Cum Laude as planned, because this semester really kicked me in the behind, but I will still have Cum Laude, which is good.

Yesterday, in my Business Policy class, my professor cried during his goodbye speech. It was so cute! I adore him, he's this scarily smart man whose a huge geek (he's a crazy japanophile - he majored in japan in college, lived in japan for 9 years, married a japanese woman, etc), and he's also really intimidating. He was telling us how he became an educator because he wanted to make a difference, and tears started running down his face. SO CUTE, Ben Cole, so cute.

In a complete change of subject: despite not being in a relationship right now, and never having been this type of girl, I've been thinking a lot about my future wedding recently. Which is weird, because I don't even know that I approve of the institution. I've had to actively stop myself from planning it. I don't want to be that person!

And, finally, you know all those freezing winter days when I made jokes like, Haha, I wish global warming would hurry up and get here! Yeah, well, global warming is a bitch and I take it back.

gina.stanton@gmail.com — Fri, 24 Apr 2009 15:11:45 GMT

Last night I went to a fancy dinner and was inducted into Beta Gamma Sigma, which is the big to Business School honor society - it was held at the Princeton Club in Manhattan, and I had to wear a suit. Only the top 10% of the class is eligible. SWEET.

Tomorrow I'm going to china town and little italy with my sister, which is always fun. And its supposed to be like a million degrees tomorrow!

I still don't have a job yet, which sucks. I've been applying since December. I'm a little worried, but, I have some money saved to fall back on, which is something, I guess.

oh noez!

gina.stanton@gmail.com — Wed, 22 Apr 2009 00:55:34 GMT

It's been a rough few days.

This morning I had a presentation, so I got up super early after going to bed super late, so I'm pretty tired. The presentation wasn't so hot, either. I left out a bunch of stuff and glossed over other parts. Whatever. I used this awesome photo of myself and Dennis and Michael in it, dancing at a mini-golf course. Cool beans, if anyone says that anymore.

Sunday I found out that the job that I had sort of been unofficially offered isn't going to happen. It was an office job at a photography place, which would be part time over the summer, branch into full time, and then develop (no pun intended!) into some photography work in addition to the office work. It was pretty awesome, until I told them that I could start May 18 (the first weekday after my graduation), and they were like, oh. We can no longer consider you, we need someone immediately. Meanwhile, I had told them mid-May when I applied, we had been moving very slowly through the q and a phases, and ARGH. So I'm a little upset about that.

And tonight was the worst choir practice ever! I was the only alto to show up, and we were doing all new music, and I stumbled along and was awful. I mean, it wasn't really awful, it was kind of funny, because I was laughing at myself, and so was everyone else, especially our choir director Rob Minotti. But it wasn't good. Easter joy my ass.

On the bright side, I've pseudo given up on a few things:

1) Keeping my 3.7. I currently have a 3.706, I think, which qualifies me for Magna Cum Laude - awesome! So I've been working towards keeping it, because I really really want it. However...it's not really looking so hot. To keep it, I would need to get at least 4 As, with a B+ and an A-, and, while that would be doable any other semester, it just isn't feasible. My classes are way hard.

So I've decided not to stress too much - even if I were to get only 2 As (which is the least I'm expecting), I can definitely still have above a 3.5, which is Cum Laude. Not as good as Magna, but, I guess I might have to settle.

and 2) I do have some time to get a job. Since I'm graduating early, I'm saving at least 40K - so any money, even a few bucks, that I earn is a bonus! (Yes, I know that this is the worst logic in the world, but, its almost keeping the panic at bay.)

25 days left until graduation. O.o

gina.stanton@gmail.com — Sun, 19 Apr 2009 21:07:28 GMT

I felt girlier the last two days than I have in a while - I wore a skirt all day yesterday (well, until Twister...) and a dress for a few hours today! o.O Crazy-talk.

It's been beautiful here the past few days.

I bought booze for the first time yesterday!

I have a busy week - a presentation Tuesday and a fancy dinner for an honor society induction on Thursday.

I've been talking with a potential employer the past few days. Hopefully that will pan out.

I am down a jean size thanks to weight watchers, but I did crappy this week. Next will be better.

OMG I have so much work to do! And that's why I'm updating LJ, of course of course...

gina.stanton@gmail.com — Tue, 14 Apr 2009 02:44:28 GMT

In the past three months, I have applied to 147 jobs.

I have had phone interviews with 3 of them.

I go back and forth between being completely terrified, and totally chill. During the totally chill times, I do stupid things, like looking at apartments, which, hello, I can't afford without a job. Like this one.

There are four and a half weeks left until graduation.

5 tests, 4 papers, 2 projects, 1 initiation, 1 awards night, 2 ceremonies to go. And Dorney Park. Because my roommates and I are going to go to Dorney in the van. It will be legendary.